Once, a very long time ago, there was a race of beings that lived in many lands all over the planet, caring for the gradual evolution and guidance of Humanity.  Having come through the Gateways, this race had a pure and uninterrupted connection to the Source, the flow of universal energy that creates all things, that is sentient, that some call God.  This race, the Malakh, have many names - some call angels, but known universally now in English as Shadow.

The Shadow had many ranks or offices within their culture.  The most physical and manifest of all ten ranks were the Grigori.   To these was given the task of watching over Humanity and guiding their growth towards spiritual harmony and the honouring of the Source that created them.  As such, the Grigori also became known as the Watchers.  Tall and fey, the Grigori were easily recognised as being different to the local human tribes in all the lands they lived.  Solemn, wise and well versed in arcane knowledge, the Grigori were seen as the Shamen of God, the physical face of Melek Taus. 

The settlements of the Grigori were in all lands, based close to the land Gateways that were open for ease of transition between the physical lands and the higher levels of spiritual existence.  It was in these planes of existence that the other ranks of Shadow lived.  The largest Gateways had the largest settlements and the most well known was in a region of the Middle East we now call Iraq.

There existed a legion of 200 Grigori who's ability to guide and teach Humanity was unsurpassed.  They always seemd to be able to control and raise the spirituality of the Human population in all settlements where they were based.  Originally based by another large land Gateway on an island in the western seas and having been living there for many years, this legion was summoned to the City of the Shadow in Eden, and once there given the task of guiding and upraising the Humans that worked in the city.  This legion had two commanders; Shemyaza and Azaz'el.  Beneath them were 18 generals overseeing 10 Grigori each. 

The City of Shadow here had a very large Temple built over the land Gateway.  These Gateways acted as doors between the physical, manifest world in this universe, and the Otherworlds, such as other physical realms, spiritual realms and, most importantly, the place of the Source.  Only Shadow were allowed into the inner sanctumn of the Temple, but Humans from the local settlements worked within the Temple complex and the city. 

The sentience of the Source had guided the highest ranks of Shadow to care for and help evolve Humanity.  If reasons for this had been given at that time, they were held deep in the heart of Shadow politics, as no record has been found and no reason given why such a technologically and spiritually advance race should ccare for in such a way their lowly cousins.  Generally, the majority of Shadow saw their duty of tending and guiding Humanity as nothing more important that a shepherd would view his sheep.   However, the legion of 200 from the West looked upon Humanity in a different light.

Friendships were strong, bonds made and over time the links between the Grigori and the local Human population became more relaxed.  Tentative relationships began and soon all of the 200 Grigori were involved with the local humans, taking human lovers, wifes, fathering children.  When the higher ranks of Shadow discovered what was happening they were outraged.  They took Azaz'el to one side and, as Commander and instigator of such Human affairs, they painfully banished him in order to set an example and end such behaviour - the first and original scapegoat.  After some considerable time Azaz'el returned, having survived his ordeal.  Promising repentance, he was accepted back into the city and regained his position in the Shadow ranks.  But his repentance was not what it seemed, and all 200 Grigori agreed to continue their relationships with Humans, only this in secret.  How could they give up those they loved?

Life continued for a short while until Shemyaza, overcome by his love for Ishtahar, a human priestess, broke one of the major lores of Shadow society - he led her to the physical manifestation of the Source and through this ascended her to a higher, physical and spiritual manifestation.  She was now more than just Human, she was a blend of Humanity and Shadow.

This caused a major uproar in all of the Shadow ranks and without delay Shemyaza was then banished.  Istahar was rejected by all around her, human and Shadow alike, her only comfort was with the Grigori guilty of loving her race.  Divisions now deepened between Shadow factions - some Grigori were aginst their brothers, some supported them.  Other ranks of Shadow also stood up in support of what the 200 had done, whilst others called for immdediate punishement.  The Council of Shadow would meet and decide the fate.

With Shemyaza gone Ishtahar turned to his best friend Azaz'el for comfort and support. Together they gathered those fellow Shadow who treasured humanity and wanted to develop the relationship further. They sat beneath a tree in the secret darkness of an ancient settglement, and planned a future where they would be free to live and love as they wished.

Then, to the surprise of many, Shemyaza returned.  He had an army at this back gathered from the outlying districts, a mix of Humans who had grown to love their Grigori friends and teachers, and Nephilim, the children of their union.  The die was cast. War ensued, a bloody but brief war.  The rebel Shadow were overthrown. Gathered in the sacred Temple complex, the Grigori was all killed, their souls bound for an eternity, unable to incarnate any more.  Shemyaza was imprisoned in the stars, Azaz'el beneath the Earth.  Istahar was cursed terribly and the children of the union, the Nephilim, were hunted down and killed.

Fortunately,  the Higher Shadow ranks could only destroy the bodies of the 200 Grigori and not the souls.  For many, the bonds that had imprisoned them began to decay over time, allowing them to be reborn within time in human form.  However, many carried traits that spereated them from most of Humanity, and have become to be known as Otherkin.  Azaz'el was dragged from his prison for a brief spell, as Shadow tried to coerce him into reopening the physical link to the Source.  When this failed, he was bound outside of time.  Ishtahar, not a Shadow, but not fully Human, incarnated many times, each life being destroyed by the behavioural curse placed upon her soul. 

Now, as we walk through the 21st Century, it is believed that the Great Cycle has turned full circle, that the bonds are finally breaking on all the imprisoned Grigori.  Awakening is coming slowly, but the Fallen Grigori are being born in Human form and remembering who and what they are.  As is Ishtahar, and many of the Humans who lived and died at the time of the Grigori rebellion.

Ishtahar and Azaz'el have awoken, remembered, found one another, and have come together.  Here we stand, bringing to the Universe our story, our truth, so that those who remember, who want to bring about the healing of all Shadow with Humanity, can stand with us as we reconnect to the Source.

In the Myth and Legend section we look in more detail at the history of the Fallen and their children.  We look at the way in which the Fallen have been treated in the myths and legends of many countries and religions and how our children have constantly emerged generation after generation as the heroes, and villains, of age old tales.  This is developed furtherthroughout the website as we look in more depth at the different types of Otherkin who have come with us on this journey.

Also in this section can be found Ishtahar's Story and Azaz'els Story - their own personal and painful account of their lives during the first times and building of the link between Humanity and Shadow.  Please bear in mind that to any who are newly awakened, these accounts may be a painful reminder of what was.  This is followed by Fallen Names, a listing of some of the names of the Fallen Grigori that can be remembered.

Please remember that all of these sections are very much a work in progress. We do not profess to remember everything yet or even to be able to scratch the surface of such a great subject. We do not hold ourselves to be experts in history, mythology, anthropology or anything very much at all. We are merely people who remember. Therefore, if there is anything here or anywhere else on the site which you feel you may be able to add to, or consider to be wrong or inaccurate then please feel free to email us and, provided that you make sense and are not too rude we will be happy to add your information into the site.  You can contact us on: